“Be patient toward all that is unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given to you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”
~ Rainer Maria Rilke
On This Walk is our journey and exploration of this unique life we live as men. I wish to share to this journey with you—share not as in teach, but to share this walk with you, to hear from you and learn from each other, to share with each other.
I have often tried to find the answers much earlier than I was ready for them. This sometimes-chasing, oftentimes-impatience was borne from trying to find my way back home, to center, within my true self.
I can tell you that now, but I didn’t know that for most of my life.
I thought I knew it as chasing success, achieving goals, providing for my family, discovering purpose, pursuing happiness, or trying to create freedom in my life—none of which were truly what I was after. They were substitutes that were always meant to be by-products, not the “thing.” Some did offer better direction and intention than others, but each provided me very necessary experiences that I had somehow called into my life and work so that I could see and connect with something that was important for my path.
My early chapters believed, success and the “good life” were something to be achieved, and that placing mind over matter was honorable, strong, and near everything to me. That path offered a lot to my development.
I learned just how empty these roads can become—how isolating too.
I learned what it means to be out of alignment or to be “cross-wise with self” as the great author and teacher Parker Palmer describes.
I learned that we cannot heal anything within by obtaining anything outside ourselves.
I learned to turn inwards.
I learned to enjoy the moment.
I learned just how beautiful, joyful and heart-opening connecting to peace and balance can be—and I mean inner balance, not the perceived balanced plate-spinning, everything in its place on my calendar and in my home faux balance. Screw that. Let it drop. Let it get messy. And let there be peace regardless!
I learned how much we already know about the path that’s best for us—unique to each of us.
I learned how to grieve, how to burn out, how to feel meaningless, how to cry… how to get downright raw and vulnerable with the universe, heart and soul exposed, with a longing to feel connected, healed and whole again if even for a moment.
And I learned how to follow a long, winding, broken, confusing, deeply meaningful, wouldn’t-change-a-damn-thing road back home.